The thin line between looking happy and being happy
Apparently, my life is revolving between PCR-CRP-CPR and that's it. I haven't been myself since the last few weeks, for no good reason. It's been chaotic in my mind & my surroundings; not that I'm feeling down, but it's just that I haven't felt good in a while.
I've been the kind of person who decides her own energy, but lately it's been the opposite.
My mind has been deviated & unsettled as a result of which my vibes were being affected by individuals around me. That happens to us all, but very few talk about it. Nobody wants to look unhappy or unsettled on social media, everyone wants to race for being perfect.
But there's a thin line between looking happy & actually being happy. And when you cross that line, you pave your way towards happiness.
As you decide your energy & it's the universe that puts it into power, I decided to start afresh today.
I started my day before dawn, meditated (something I haven't done in ages), studied my favorite topic of Prions, went to the lab to do PCR (My everyday thing), cooked, listened to my top 10 fav songs on loop, took out a new book to read, am now writing this article & planning to write a poem tonight.
I'm letting go of people in my surroundings who affect my way of thinking. I believe this 'Vibe with me or die' is going to be a major vibe changer !!
I wasn't feeling good in the past few weeks because I had stopped doing all that I love, I had almost forgotten all the studies I did in the past 5 years, literally ! In a fixed boring routine, it was all ruined.
It took me sometime to realize that sticking to a routine just to keep up with the pace of life, while neglecting yourself, the way you feel from within & taking self care for granted takes a toll on your happiness & changes your vibes.
🙅🏻♀️This wasn't rocket science but the Pre-research period has given me Imposter syndrome vibes which made me someone I've never been ~ A sad, dissatisfied person who kept on wondering what road is my life taking next by doubting myself. The writer, the home chef, gamer, researcher & most importantly, the happy human in me had died. Had not written a word since April first week and my blog was deserted, so was my mind.
Not gonna write more of an article this time because this is just the dawn of new beginnings & a lot of good is yet to come soon.
All that I want to share is :
🛑UAG the following (For the non bio people, this is a silly molecular biology pun where UAG means stop😝)
🛑Doubting your worth.
🛑Neglecting the vibes you get after sticking to a boring routine.
🛑Never let people around you decide your energy, make it opposite.
🛑Do no let go what you love doing just for the sake of a stupid routine you're unhappy about !
💁🏻♀️Because it ruins every good thing that is in front of you by blocking your vision to achieve the best.
As you understand the difference between looking happy on the outside and actually being happy from the inside, you change. Thus, when in doubt, let your mind re-route 💫
- Rachna Jadhav
@theresilientresearcher
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